I don’t wish what I was going through for anyone.
As a 21 year old African American male, promoting health wellness, and good vibes, sharing what I love with everyone I thought my life couldn’t get any better.
Until I met a female that would change my life forever. She was so special to me, I beat the odds, the neigh sayers, and the stereotypes going out with her. My first real love, the one I wanted to share my whole world with, someone I would slice a piece of the universe for.
I was so faithful to her, didn’t want anybody but her, I made sure of that. Cut off potential females that tried to get me, pushed them away, just to get closer to the girl I wanted marry.
Turns out she wasn’t feeling me after a while, she was too afraid to say she was just bored with me. She was just dragging me along for moral and emotional support.
She played with my emotions instead of keeping it one hundred with me.
It’ll be tough getting over her, we shared a lot of similarities,
In music, the arts, movies and fashion. So everything I deal with in life, will remind me of her.. The one I thought that’ll be my soul mate.
I close my eyes to get rid of the memories, I drown myself with other women on campus but I know it isn’t the same.
Knowing what I did, I was virtually a perfect boyfriend towards her. I was highly respected from other peers, when they witnessed how in love and how much effort I put into loving this girl.
Too bad she didn’t see it, or maybe took it for granted.
duckingfope Dorien who are you? Men like you are rare, it’s almost like I’m star struck because I never thought I’ll be on a personal level to a guy of your nature. Here’s just the key points I’ve found to be so awesome to me about you.
1. Your Honesty
2. You’re freaking intelligence my God…
I want a girlfriend that loves life. Someone positive, joyful, and full of energy. Someone who never stops dreaming and is always on the pursuit of adventure. Someone who pushes me out of my comfort zone and dares me to really live.
I want a girlfriend that cares for others. Someone selfless and empathetic. Someone who has a heart to serve other people before themselves.
I want a girlfriend I can trust. Someone I can depend on no matter what I may be going through. Someone who will fight for me. Someone who will stick with me not because it’s easy, but because they love me.
I want a girlfriend who pushes me to better myself. Spiritually, emotionally, physically, and in every other aspect of my life. Someone who sees my potential and encourages me to reach it.
I want a girlfriend that loves me. Someone who enjoys my stupid sense of humor. Someone I can spend the entire day with and never get tired of. Someone who shares my love for music, art, and food. Someone who will stay in bed all day with me because it’s raining outside. Someone who will start food fights with me while we make dinner. Someone who will pack up their things and join me on spontaneous road trips. Someone who calls me because they’re having a rough day. Someone who isn’t afraid to show me every piece of who they are, the good and the bad.
I don’t want a girlfriend, I want a best friend I guess.